HI, I’M DAN and I’m in RECOVERY.
Welcome to my website about, MY RECOVERY.
Thank you for taking the time to visit. I hope you find it useful. The purpose of my website is to share my EXPERIENCE, STRENGTH and HOPE with others who still SUFFER. Please feel free to drop me some FEEDBACK.
Your first question may be, what are you in recovery for?
I’m in recovery for MYSELF, recovering from MYSELF. My THOUGHTS, my FEELINGS and my BEHAVIOURS.
Essentially my unresolved childhood traumas and codependent upbringing led to the onset of depression in my early-mid teens.
The abuse of alcohol and cannabis shortly after leaving school triggered a persistent psychosis which went undiagnosed and untreated for 20+ years.
To deal with the fear and loneliness of the depression plus the paranoia and anxiety of the psychosis, I turned primarily to addictive sexual thoughts, feelings and behaviours and alcohol in order to escape from myself. My head was comparable to that of a waking nightmare, slowly driving me ever more insane.
In July 2014, this lifestyle finally culminated in a life that had become unmanageable. I admitted defeat. My lifelong commitment to my ongoing recovery began.
I keep a daily JOURNAL of my recovery. Which you are more than welcome to read.
WARNING: The contents of my JOURNAL is not for the faint hearted. I talk with brutal honesty about things that many in society still finds difficult to accept and understand, such as sex addiction, child abuse and childhood incest between siblings.
The Trauma Triangle
Here is my interpretation of what I like to call, ‘The Trauma Triangle’. I hope this demonstrates my understanding of how my behaviours grew and changed. Gradually becoming more progressive and destructive over time. The triangle represents boundaries. The longer I left my trauma unresolved and the more I indulged in my active addictions, the wider my boundaries became.
It is also representative, because you cannot balance a triangle on a single point forever.
i.e You can run, but you can’t hide from yourself forever.
This is how the trauma triangle works for me. I class all of the below as differing mental health issues.
Clinical Depression / Anxiety
Co-dependency – Read my CoDA Step 1.
Trauma / Complex Mental Health – (I’m currently working on my LSA Step 1)
Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Low Latent Inhibition
Obsesive Compulsive Disorder
Paranoia (including periods of paranoid schizophrenia)